Saturday, January 9, 2010

Letters to Existence

A 17 year old I used to know once wrote:

"I feel envoked to walk this path and go through with it. Like the endless night-time roads that make me feel at ease, only this one has a stop. A stop that may decide whether the road really is endless.
My heart swells and soars at the mere thought of the future. My future. And it bursts when I think about the seconds that have passed, not by me, but through me. Do I notice? I do. I do during those nights when -astoundingly- everything is so clear yet so confusing. When I lose touch with everything but feel so in tune with the world. Where does all that faith come from?

I seek more. Not out of selfishness; out of eagerness. Out of passion."

That 17 year old was me.


  1. Wow great piece. Truly beautiful wording.

    I can totally relate. I think I have a piece stashed away somewhere from that age. I think when we're 17 we want to grab the world with our bare hands but we're still a little scared and unsure of how to do it. I guess I haven't quite grown up because I often still feel this way.

  2. I don't think I needed you to say that it was you :)

    The words scream it out. YOU. So you!

  3. Quite impressive for a 17 year old! I think that if I went back and read my diaries from when I was 17, they would be about how much I hated school and the boy I was pining after. I guess everyone grows at their own rate though.

  4. This is a beautiful post. I relate because there's nothing I like better than to go through my old journals and reminisce, and see what my mind was up to back then. It's touching, nostalgic, humorous, and almost even heart wrenching at times. I really like your blog, and your "About Me" section: especially the bit about turning real life into movie scenes. I totally do that all the time! And no one has a clue that as we're sitting their eating dinner and laughing and talking, I'm imagining the whole thing is a reel of filmstrip on a movie screen...because we are that important. ;)

  5. I love this post.
    A lot. You seem like quite a profound, mature 17 year old. Someone I would've liked to hang out with :)

    And thank you for your lovely comment on my blog! It made me smile :D